Things Have Changed for Me and Thats Okay --Patd

Applied for Piedmont in Athens.
Still waiting for the acceptance into GA State.
Grandpa passed away. Wednesday.
Relatives are here from across the United States.
Stressful.
Unexpected.
Rainy & Gloomy weather.
Church. Church. more Church.
Much needed.
New York with my best friends.
This upcoming Wednesday.
Packing.

Amount to something.

“To be nobody but yourself -- in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else -- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.”

I’ve seen what the Milky Way looks like from the rest of the world, but underneath the gorgeous black horizon, I’ve seen the most disturbing thing. When it gets right down to it, beyond our subtle differences in ethnicity, religion, and culture, we are all the same.

"Life is a play and we are all unrehearsed."
We choose the role we have in it.
Some play the heroes.
Some play the victims.
I don’t want to end up being another piece of shit in a cubicle working to make someone else rich.

I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge to see all the kinds of things you can't see from the center. When the curtain falls on my existence I want to be proud of my accomplishments.

Sincerity.

I think the scene has overexpanded and is going to collapse on itself pretty damn soon.

People disappoint me. People disgust me. Occasionally I'm pleasantly mistaken I've grown out of a lot things and people. All the things I aspired to really are not that great now that I have them. Modern life frustrates the hell out of me. I'm trying to change my life. Become more positive. I have too many passing acquaintances and my phonebook is packed with insincerity. I'm ready to move on. I want more in life than the coolest new hairstyle. It is all about image and I'm not going to Photoshop my life to meet your current perception of what perfection is.

I have a lot of bad memories I could do without but they make me who I am today. I've tried to live a lot of my life as a constant Saturday night but as I succeed more and more I begin to realize that maybe the things I wanted so badly weren't all I thought they would be.
I probably wont be what you expect. Its up to you if that’s a good thing or not. I know my blogs are angst as hell but I'm not typically like that. I only write when im troubled. Usually.

I'm really not interested in your social games and DRAMA. Please don't try to get me in the middle of it. Everyone needs to get over this high school mentality.
My best friends are nuts but they keep me sane. I love them for it.
Im tired of this generation. Im tired of the thought that in ten years we will have a nation of pissed off, pierced and tattooed kids pumping gas and engaging in high school DRAMA. I respect people who don’t act like idiots, sluts, tough guys, meatheads, or potheads. I'm nice to everyone unless they give me reason not to. If you heard differently you definitely did not hear the whole story. I have seen a lot of needless grief so excuse me if I don’t want your worthless DRAMA. Really.
We are a generation obsessed with ourselves. The internet and cell phones were created to connect people. I believe it has only made us more isolated. Every show is a contest of who has the most acquaintances they can superficially hug and move on to find the next person. We Photoshop our lives to take out each genuine imperfection and replace it with a plastic image of who we feel we should be. All originality has been lost to dyed black hair, ripped tights and asymmetrical hair.
To me, it’s all about sincerity.