This girl has even bigger ambitions than you do.

Don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you're lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself. Know what you want.
White Oleander

It’s lonely here in this monotonous every day sameness of small city life with the same group of people to revolve around day after day after day after day. I think I can handle at least a few more months of this...
Recently I've learned a lot of life’s hard lessons. I toughed it out, well.. through most of it. Now, I’m changing the pace. I also very recently seemingly lost something very precious to me. Not only to my heart, but to my head and the rest of my body. Sympathy? No thanks. Empathy? Maybe. I just want you to know...I hope you're happy. Sincerely. And that you don’t regret me. Change your life. I will always miss you, and I will always be here for you, waiting to be your friend. To be whatever it is you need. If you haven't realized by now, that is my special power. My 6th sense. You are and always will be my best friend. Admittedly in the past I may have held my tongue. I don’t anymore. I spent a lot of time trying to understand people and want to surround myself with people that are able to love, support, and better me.

Don't Let Anyone Scare You

First semester into college and I am already breaking down. Now I understand why the average dropout rate for college freshman is through the roof. Although my classes are difficult, I am determined to excel in each and every one. Within these few months of self-realization, my decided major is pre-pharmacy. Although one of the hardest professions, I will succeed. For my pre-pharmacy bachelors degree, I am required to take Pre Calculus, Calculus, Statistics, Biology 1&2, Chemistry 1&2, Physics 1&2, and finally Organic Chemistry 1&2.
Boy do I have a bumpy ride ahead of me.

Complete happiness?

I'm not simple but I'm trying to simplify. I'm loyal but I have trouble trusting. I'm rarely at a loss for words. I tend not to take care of myself. I'm actually really nice which seems to surprise people. I can make people laugh. I'm really extremely vulgar and random. I tend to have more fun than not. If you love me, I'll find a way to drive you off.

The moment i decided to care about myself I met you. You loved me before I even knew you. My life has always been about everyone but me. For once, its about me, its about us, and its about feeling like we're the only people on the face of this earth. I may have lost my so-called-friends in the process, but I don’t think of it that way. Maybe I just realized how much I can be in this life. Maybe you've just made me realize what I’m capable of becoming. I’d like to think you came to me just when I needed you most, to show me how you're supposed to love someone.